Friday, May 16, 2008 @ 10:06 PM
TENSION
No time to blog past few days. so yup, here am i to blog?
Supposed to post about my birthday, but nvm, i shall post other day bah.
Have been busy with my badm trainings, cuz tourns are coming again.
NO MOOD NO MOOD NO MOOD!
Everyone i see today makes me feel so bu shuang. if i have offended you, paiseh, i didnt mean it. please understand luh. today suppose to be a great day lor, nvm.
badmood? i shall have to take it out on myself. It's like, 10.30pm now? & i'm chewing on chocolates i got from my presents yesterdayy. I SHALL EAT UNTIL NEXT MORNING. i dont give a damn anymore, but just for todayy. hope the chocs can make me feel better this way.
I'm supposed to go out & celebrate my birthday tmr, but it just seems like i'm totally in no mood to go anymore? I dont think i'll enjoy it even if i go lor. whateverr..
My smashes are so perfect today lor. I just merely stuck that * face there, aim at it, & hit it with all my might, & there goes the "PAH!" sound. SHUANG! even my coach couldnt counter it. how great. Maybe smth like this should happen everytime before my tourn, so that all my opponent isnt a match for me. lols.
I feel like crumpling & tearing papers & throw it all around the house, tear away all the posters on the walls, take a penknife & vandalise all the furnitures, flipping all the tables & chairs in the house, take a pair of scissors & cut up all my hair, mess up my wardrobe, smashing the birthday cake on someone's face, force myself to run 10km in the middle of the night, break all my discs into half, smash my handphone on the floor, cut up all the strings on my racket, punch the wall hard until i bleed, bang my head on the floor until i faint, take a hammer & break all my nails, squeeze the whole packet of studs into my earhole, put my fingers into the socket, slap my face until it goes red... I JUST WONT JUMP!
so what?!
disastrous birthday. i wouldnt hope for it anymore. SHOO!
shall end here.
daggerestlove.
