Tuesday, June 17, 2008 @ 10:40 PM
sian.
really regretted going to vietnam. bad expedition, bad outcome.
6days.
really happened alot of things. it's like, the whole world's turning upside down.
well,
dont think i'm gonna post abt vietnam anymore. since it's such a bad curse. ):
i'm in the least mood to do anything now. maybe i just needed a really good break. A break that can let me think everything properly, so that i wont act harshly, so that i wont regret, so that everything can be solved, so that.. all can come to an end. it's really tiring man, i swear it is. well, shall let tmr be the day. no going out, no trainings, no tournament, nothing. face the wall & reflect, THINK. dont want it to be the same old way to solve probs. needed a best solution.
i screwed everything up today. lost the match today, led the team to lose WKW tourn. sadded. but losing is expected de. shld be because i'm sick.(well, fever sore throat, what else?) & some other things that were going throught my minds & eyes, which makes me hard to focus though. shit, got gun-shot alot of times today. everytime liddat de lar, lose match liao, nth good will happen. ): sob. wound still very deep wor. :S
coach really knows me best man. thanks, but it's not neccessary. cos it wont help anyway. it'll just make things worse i think. hope not. sadly, anytime i may let coach down again this few weeks. see how things go.
& thanks Jing, Qing & Ella. (: ella! dont be too agitated. you-all're the best. (: not forgetting huiwen. (:
today's training is tough. take this as a punishment or retribution to me bah. or part of a way that can make me grow.
persist on.
cos tmr will be a better day.
cos there's still a long way to go.
cos you're gonna turn the world back to its normal self again.
strive on.
JIAYOU!
不可以轻易倒下！
-JANET-
lies. you lied. cruel move. ):
